Showers

When it rains it pours, I thought I was just having a couple of bad days, didn't think that they'd turn so bad snuggles and I would be in a deseert storm and not in sight of each other. I'm down, I want to get up but my legs fail me, my chest is heaving in frustration and the winds are biting at my skin, making it impossible to see..




I miss him, I want him here with me, I was finally settling into a happy place but the universe had other plans, does it not understand that this is the man I have chosen and I have no desire to even think of anyone else? Sigh! If it wasn't a break and be in the deepest of slumps; so many thoughts are going through me, have been going through me since last night; what is wrong with me? It must be me



Last night was crazy emotional, my heart felt like the life was slowly being squeezed out of  it, then it went numb, then it just slacked in despair. It wanted to fight for its source of many happy moments and reason for so many of its skipped beats but the fight in me was fading with each painful beat of realization. When he held me and my whole body was raked with sobs, I was scared that if I let him go, it'll be forever..



I'm seated in class not even trying to pay attention to this dude going on and on...I want to walk out and go back to my bed and weep



Wish I lived in a movie, when at my lowest point the man of my dreams would just come and sweep me off my feet, realise that all this was a huge mistake and that he can't live without me because he's in love with me and I'm the girl of his dreams.


Time to go, screw this lecturer