Is there really a point to loving someone if all they’re going to cost you is pain without measure? Are the tears worth it? So tired of crying..difference between Snuggles and Dimples (if that’s even the name I used in this blog, don’t care to check) is that I actually think Snuggles is worth it. He’s a noble man with issues, I’m a good girl with issues, what’s to stop us from being together? Plus we have that beauty spot at the exact same place on our necks and we both have strange feet
I don’t get why there should be pain so early in our relationship, at 5months un-officially and 4months one day officially we should still be in our honeymoon stage, did we even have that? Sigh!
We were never really friends and the very tiny optimistic, hopeful part of me sees this as an opportunity to become actual friends who don’t have sex, or something..sigh! My life sucks constantly, I dunno what I do to offend the universe, I mean I try not to litter and cause pollution of any kind and I think I’m a fairly good earthian citizen with a few exceptions, pretty sure the universe is not a perfectionist..maybe it’s just bad karma from something I did…either way I’m glad that snuggles is a good man, just sad at his issues. Just don’t want anyone else but him
Had a happier weekend than I anticipated, ok maybe happier should be substituted for drunker but nothing beats friends and alcohol when you’re depressed, nothing! maybe God, I wouldn’t know, I’m not the best at turning to spiritual nourishment when all I want is spirit-induced bliss.
Danced in the rain at blankets and wine, so cool. Its really strange how coincidentally we all had white clothes on, on the day it decides to pour for hours on end and your outdoors drunk and dancing, murphy’s law.I find it a bit disturbing how I write so well when I’m sad; almost like depression releases the talent within, maybe that is the reason I was created a fairly dark person, raw inspiration, besides who wants to read happy stuff anyway?
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